I had a long debate with myself before I started this blog. I mean, I already have a perfectly good personal blog. (Not to mention a nice trail of short lived blogs on other subjects.) Why start yet another? It came down to a question of freedom.
Right now I’m facing a moral crisis. I’m finding that what my head believes to be right does not always mesh with what I’ve been taught is right. I’m upending my personal moral code, dusting it out and reconstructing it in a new form. I’m not quite sure what that form is. Right now I suspect it looks a lot like Objectivism but it’s a gut feeling. First I need to read, analyze and think in detail before I can be sure what moral picture matches logical thought instead of training. (In fact I’m pretty sure if you say you are an Objectivist because “it feels right” they throw you right out.)
So why do I need freedom to do this? Well I’m one of those split personalities that is both incredibly shy and incredibly out going all in one package. The last thing I need while attempting to lay out a thought I’m still working on is to worry about what mom so and so is going to think. When it’s all clear in my head and I feel I have a solid floor of thought to stand on I’ll be happy to say things loud and clear to whoever will listen (just ask my family) but for now I need a place for a quiet whisper. In fact my benchmark for when I finally work everything out will be when I feel confident enough to write any of this on my regular blog.
In the mean time this blog will work as my drawing board. A place to sketch out what I’m thinking, look at it and see if it still makes sense. (Not to mention occasionally get input from others who don’t think it’s crazy to do something like rethink your moral code.)
